I guess I have been burning lotsa calories these past months since frowning requires much more muscles. (except on the day of jan 17, refer to blog post dated jan 17. HAHAHAHA) I haven't been blogging much lately, often times I find myself logging into blogger, clicking the"new post" button and then, there will be a long pause. the cursor blinks and seems to beckon me to start typing. But in the end, I just roll my mouse over to the red button at the top right corner of the screen. It's not that I have nothing to blog, some things are just so hard to put to words. Furthermore, I don't want others to read what I have to say and start supposing this and that. What you mean when you say something may not be what others think, this I have realised. Take for example, for the literature promotional examinations paper last year, during the poem analysis part of the paper, I misinterpreted the poems (thank God I still managed to pass), not that my interpretation was illogical or anything, it just wasn't what the poet had in mind while penning down the poem. Ah, i think you get what i mean. Don't know why, but my heart was heavy for most days of the week, I just didn't feel right all over. I realised that with so many things happening (in my life and around me), I have neglected the sovereign One, who already knows what is ahead, the outcomes and all. That night I went to bed weary (and teary). I whispered a prayer before turning in and the tears just flowed down. Too overwhelming, I guess. What's been a comfort these days is the fact that I know Who holds tommorow, that I trust in an unchanging God.
This week passed by so slowly. I had great study plans for this week, but unfortunately, it did not turn out the way I had expected it to be, although it is important to note that I did make a conscious effort to sleep less, complete my tutorials and do some revision. Thank God for an Economics tutor, who really did give me some enlightenment. I could not answer most of her questions (sadly), and I am sure that I made her feel like she was teaching a j1 student who was totally clueless about Economics. She kept asking me, "What have you been doing in lessons last year?!" HAHAH, hopefully I am a step closer to passing the Economics paper. Thursday was the day that I had my History Term Test, and while proceeding to the test venue, I had a panic attack, well, maybe not that serious, but my heart was beating really fast. Nervous? I don't think so. What was so laughable was what Huishi said. She said maybe it was because I was going to meet my "bai ma wang zhi/zi". HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but then **** appeared. NO WAY! :( On an even more random note, for just two minutes just now, my ambition was to be a lawyer! :) Not anymore now, though.
8 days to 18th. Jiamin says 18 is old. I am not too sure myself. But I think as long as you have to wear uniforms to school, you're still considered young. 18, 18, 18!
He who calls each one by name,
Loves and cares for us the same.
This week passed by so slowly. I had great study plans for this week, but unfortunately, it did not turn out the way I had expected it to be, although it is important to note that I did make a conscious effort to sleep less, complete my tutorials and do some revision. Thank God for an Economics tutor, who really did give me some enlightenment. I could not answer most of her questions (sadly), and I am sure that I made her feel like she was teaching a j1 student who was totally clueless about Economics. She kept asking me, "What have you been doing in lessons last year?!" HAHAH, hopefully I am a step closer to passing the Economics paper. Thursday was the day that I had my History Term Test, and while proceeding to the test venue, I had a panic attack, well, maybe not that serious, but my heart was beating really fast. Nervous? I don't think so. What was so laughable was what Huishi said. She said maybe it was because I was going to meet my "bai ma wang zhi/zi". HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but then **** appeared. NO WAY! :( On an even more random note, for just two minutes just now, my ambition was to be a lawyer! :) Not anymore now, though.
8 days to 18th. Jiamin says 18 is old. I am not too sure myself. But I think as long as you have to wear uniforms to school, you're still considered young. 18, 18, 18!
He who calls each one by name,
Loves and cares for us the same.
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